No update for months!

A long time I didn't update my blog. And today is the day for new post. I frequently update my blog because lack of time. Form 4 life is very very busy. And every things aren't the same like last time. I must to work harder to get my succeed although there are many blockage. :) 

Let's see my last post, what did I write? What did I think? That time, was the time, I was sad, I can do nothing. But time carries all things, it's true. It's good to forget the sadness but not the happiness. Now, we are "staying" in a normal situation, nothing goes wrong, everything moves smoothly. What I said is very optimistic right? But NO. Nothing goes wrong and everything moves smoothly mean there's no changes at all! I stopped here since few months ago. Should I continue my way? Or I should standing at the same place and waiting for miracle? Miracle, does it exist in this world? Do YOU hear me? Please happen on me, I need you, Miracle. 

I'm really wrong, sorry. That's all I can say.

There's quite a long time I have no updated my bloggie. It's Sunday morning now, usually I will very happy 
when it's Sunday, but today, I'm not in very good mood now. :\ 

There's too much things happened during my recovery "HOLIDAY", it happened too fast and too long, I can't even handle it well and its make me SICK and SAD on it, what a double S. :'(

This picture is feeling :')

I'm very sorry. I shouldn't angry of her in the wrong time wrong place. NO! It's no anytime or anywhere! I'm listening to skinny love which sang by Birdly so many times, the song is very suitable for my mood now :'(


I will do anything, but there's nothing I can do, feel sad uh? I feel guilt now, now it's not the time to do anything, if I do everything, she will feel that I'm very annoying. For example, when you drop a ring in the deep sea, you will nervous about it, and jump inside water to find it. When you are so hardworking finding on it, you can find nothing because when you are in hurry to find that ring, you forget, you are making the water more blur. At the end you can't find it as well. Let's say it in a easy way, when you stop finding, waiting the water clear, and you will be able to see that ring clearly. That's mean I should stop doing anything now, what I can do is only wait,wait,wait and wait. Wait is not hard, but it's suffer and you will easily give up when you are waiting. I clearly tell myself, THIS IS WONT HAPPEN TO ME. Love a person is not easy I know, it's hard, everything is unpredictable. If I'm not willing to sacrifices, who else? :')